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Salutations, friend! Here you won't believe your eyes & ears, for these mere mystic and enchanted sites and sounds defy logic and explanation… continue if you dare.

-TRU NORTH

LYRICS, THOUGHTS AND Stories of oddities and such

RIP Sean Devincent 4/30/83 - 1/5/2012  When I came to Las Vegas there was nothing glamorous. I was basically homeless with my Drummer Sean DeVincent. We left everything we'd known to seek the unseen light at the end of the tunnel, which none of us knew what that was yet. All we had was a white van, expiring car insurance, Ramen noodles and heart and the will to make history remember us. We played every venue in Las Vegas and Hollywood and only had each other and a dream we formed in 2001. I played music with my brothers. In 2012, Sean Devincent took his own life and I always found myself leaning into the dark thoughts of depression and anxiety but nothing hurts my heart more than a brother and getting that call. We both grew up with nothing but our instruments in a small town in the countryside of Michigan. I live everyday to hopefully make a difference in someone’s life with my voice, lyrics and stories. I hope my words and honesty is just a mere framed thought and that nothing is accounted for as a mental receipt of a negative.

RIP Sean Devincent 4/30/83 - 1/5/2012

When I came to Las Vegas there was nothing glamorous. I was basically homeless with my Drummer Sean DeVincent. We left everything we'd known to seek the unseen light at the end of the tunnel, which none of us knew what that was yet. All we had was a white van, expiring car insurance, Ramen noodles and heart and the will to make history remember us. We played every venue in Las Vegas and Hollywood and only had each other and a dream we formed in 2001. I played music with my brothers. In 2012, Sean Devincent took his own life and I always found myself leaning into the dark thoughts of depression and anxiety but nothing hurts my heart more than a brother and getting that call. We both grew up with nothing but our instruments in a small town in the countryside of Michigan. I live everyday to hopefully make a difference in someone’s life with my voice, lyrics and stories. I hope my words and honesty is just a mere framed thought and that nothing is accounted for as a mental receipt of a negative.

Make History Remember You

Isn't it about time to put the past away and stop reading backwards and start another page

And put the bottle down, you’re not thirsty anyway

You've drowned your memories but tomorrow’s another day

This life is a choice so let the world hear your voice

It's never too late to start over again

This life is a choice so let the world hear your voice

Make History Remember You...

Step outside your self for a minute

Are you proud today of this life you’re living

Get up, dust yourself off and try again

Say it to yourself and believe it, it's never too late to change myself today

You say you’re not a Loser, so WIN

 

So here we are now somewhere in between the light and darkness like a candle in the wind

Will you hold on long enough, enough to see your dreams fly like an eagle and feel the wind beneath your wings 

 

This life is a choice so let the world hear your voice

It's never too late to start over again

This life is a choice so let the world hear your voice

Make History Remember You...

Step outside your self for a minute

Are you proud today of this life you’re living

Get up, dust yourself off and try again

Say it to yourself and believe it, it's never too late to change myself today

You say you’re not a Loser, so WIN.

LIVING WITH NO DIRECTIONS"

written by Ryan Whyte Maloney

 

It's been a long hard while since I looked into this mirror

And the wrinkles on my face begin to come in clearer

And the memories and pictures reflect inside my eyes

Remind me of the family and the love that we deny

Can we put away our swords and just go back to the day

That we took our vows and swore that we'd protect them from always

Cuz I've decided I'm not ready to give up everything

Cuz after-all we are just children Living with no directions

Cuz I'm ready to come back home

 

And I'll be the first to say that I admit that I was wrong

I made mistakes and ran away

I should've been more strong

I was too afraid to open up and let my eyes believe

Your love and faith is like the wind you feel but you can't see

If you can find forgiveness to give us one more try

I promise you a lifetime of only happy tears to cry

And I'm proud of you for forgiving the boy that I became

And showing me what love is and what it means to be a man

 

Cuz I'm ready to come back home

WHERE I'VE BEEN

words and music by Ryan Whyte Maloney

If I think back real hard of who I am and how I got here today
It's been a long hard road of miles and miles of lessons and mistakes
I've been Picked on, Knocked down and told I wasn't gonna amount to anything
But something inside me keeps telling me your destined for something greater
So stand up again

And I wont back down
I'll dust myself off again
And I'll push back harder and never give up till I get there

Nobody's been where I've been
Nobody's seen what I've seen and if you think for a second you know who I am
Try walking in my shoes to fall down and stand up again
Try waking up and sucking in all the pain
Try working through the trials and tribulations
and keeping a smile on your face
So you can be strong for your family that’s where I've been

16 couldn't come fast enough with keys in hand it never came back again
18 thought that I knew everything all alone outside in my car with no friends
22 sinking in a bottle of alcohol wandering with no directions
25 two words I'll never forget, "I'm pregnant" now it's time to be a man
And I wont back down
I'll dust myself off again
And I'll push back harder and never give up till I get there

Nobody's been where I've been
Nobody's seen what I've seen and if you think for a second you know who I am
Try walking in my shoes to fall down and stand up again
Try waking up and sucking in all the pain
Try working through the trials and tribulations
and keeping a smile on your face
So you can be strong for your family that’s where I've been

 

"IT'S NEVER TOO LATE"

words and music by Ryan Whyte Maloney

 

My friend it's come to my attention that you've lost everything

And that your down at the bottom of a bottle and you are drowning

And now you’re hurting everyone you love around you

But most of all my best friend your hurting me too

 

And I can't save you unless you love yourself enough

To finally open your eyes

Just look in the mirror and realize

It's never too late at a second chance at life

 

Just take a deep breathe

And Hold out your hand

I'll meet you half way

If you take that chance

And we'll break off these chains

That hold you inside

And spread out your wings

So you can learn to fly

TOMORROW'S ANOTHER DAY

words and music by Ryan Whyte Maloney

The sky burns red today, these feelings of disgrace

This blackness tears apart the remnants that one was my heart

This emptiness within these veins now closing in, lay me down to kiss goodnight my naive eyes and say goodbye

A dream so far away do I have the strength to find inside the way and dream tomorrow is another day.

Save me tonight, Help me find another way to light the darkness I am Afraid.

Inside me bears a hole to what was once a soul, your hate took it day by day and slowly faded to decay

I just can't understand is why you love me when you make me cry.

A dream so faraway do I have the strength to find inside the way and dream tomorrow is another day.

Save me tonight, Help me find another way to light the darkness I am Afraid.

Now in the dark I stand can I take your hand, and will you lead me too, can I out my trust in you.

Take me away to another place where thorns' pain inside and we'll fly away tonight

E is For EMPTY

words and Music By Ryan Maloney

I never thought that life would show me that everything inside of me all along was never living

I never thought that it would be me to die at 23 drowning in my selfish Ecstasy

Pain pain please go away come again some other day cuz it is always raining inside of me

The levels in my head, God put these thoughts to rest

And I pray my soul to keep there's gotta be something to believe

 

So tell me why that everything we love has to die please someone answer me

There's gotta be much more to this life that dying for money

Happiness can come in pill form but long after the storm, Your smile fades into the darkest shade of grey

So you return to this place of happier days, but we both know it's never the same

Pain pain please go away come again some other day cuz it is always raining inside of me

The levels in my head, God put these thoughts to rest

And I pray my soul to keep there's gotta be something to believe

 

So tell me why that everything we love has to die please someone answer me

There's gotta be much more to this life that dying for money

 

Michigan Moonlight

words and music by Ryan Whyte Maloney

 

Well I remember it like it was yesterday

Us boys hang’n out at the county fair on a Saturday

We were 17, wild eyed and full of life

And those 4-H girls were driving us wild

We were standing in line at the Gravitron

And that DJ turned that stereo on and said

Pour some sugar on me

And everyone was sing’n like "DETROIT ROCK CITY"

Yeah we were sneak’n sips of whiskey

Smokin’ cigarettes on that Ferris wheel

We were 10 ft tall and bulletproof

You know everything was alright.........In that Michigan moonlight

 

Well I saw a lil cutie with a countrified booty

That was nibbling on some sweet cherry pie

I asked whats your name she said Norma Jean

I said how would you like to take a ride with me baby

She said gimme a swig before we go

Boy this ain’t my first rodeo and said

 

Pour some sugar on me

And everyone was sing’n like "DETROIT ROCK CITY"

Yeah we were sneak’n sips of whiskey

Smokin’ cigarettes on that Ferris wheel

We were 10 ft tall and bulletproof

You know everything was alright.........In that Michigan moonlight

 

It's the smell of corn dogs on a Saturday night

The sound of kids laughing, girls gett’n in fights

2 kids holding hand in summertime love, it's Elephant ears and Kettle corn

It's a Blue ribbon on mamma's Rhubarb Pie, It's a bingo winner for the first time

Grandpa sitt’n on a bench check’n out the babes tell’n stories to the kids about the good o'l days

It's a flag waving high in the sky

She made my day in the middle of the night...In that Michigan moonlight

 

Us Against The World

words and Music By Ryan Maloney

So So just how long are you gonna let them walk all over you
Hands tied behind your back as you take each hit and get back up again
Cuz I've never met anyone who wears a fake smile quite like you do
It's OK, you’re safe, they're gone so you can be yourself again
 
So save your strength and take my hand
Do you trust me then run away with me because I have got a Plan
 
So Lock and Load we'll come out firing and we'll take this on together (And I'll Carry you) 
Take my Hand it's now or never it's us against the world (And I'll carry you) 
 
And we will leave behind the hurt and broken pride and I'll be there to mend and put your smile back again
Cuz Inside these hands I offer you Freedom and Love Beauty and Truth & a Lifetime of everlasting memories
So save your strength and take my hand
Do you trust me then run away with me because I have got a Plan

So Lock and Load we'll come out firing and we'll take this on together (And I'll Carry you) 
Take my Hand it's now or never it's us against the world (And I'll carry you) 

Don't ever live your life with closing eyes cuz i will be your light in your darkest hour
And I will carry you into another day another day..... 

So Lock and Load we'll come out firing and we'll take this on together (And I'll Carry you) 
Take my Hand it's now or never it's us against the world (And I'll carry you)

I believe in YOu

words and Music By Ryan Maloney

Sometimes you feel like breaking down

Sometimes you feel like everyone around you

Is against you

Can't find a wall to hold on to

But keep stretching your arms out

Cuz I am here to catch you

I am here to catch you

There is still time to find your smile

Please believe me there is a way out

 

When darkness falls tonight know that my love will shine on you

Just believe in yourself as I believe in you

Yes I believe in you

 

You've been down this lonely road a long time

Singing the same song with no one to listen

Just Hoping, Praying

For the right time

The right eyes to find you

Like a needle in a haystack

Don’t give up just yet

 

There is still time

To find your smile

Please believe me

There is a way out

 

When darkness falls tonight know that my love will shine on you

Just believe in yourself as I believe in you

Yes I believe in you

 

I"ll never give up

I'll never give in

I'll never give out anything but love

And when you get tired know you can lean on me

Cuz I will be right here waiting for you.

 

All Along

words and Music By Ryan Maloney

Hunny I've been watching you sleep for a while
Watching shadows dance from the moonlights smile
Showing off your beautiful Grace
On that gorgeous face that I could never replace
Wondering how such a fool like me could ever be
Laying next to a real life angel
But somehow someway you saved me and I say..

Oooohhhh... (crowd re-peats)
 
And If I die before I wake
I pray the lord my soul to take
And tell you that I loved you from the moment that I saw you
And everyday I worked for you
Just to lay down next to you
And the Greatest gift you gave me most of all
Everyday you loved me was like Heaven on this Earth ALL ALONG

From that teenage girl who was so wild
To the beautiful woman standing right in front of me
You still shine for me like my own star
And after all these years of hearing the same lines
You still find a way to blow my mind I could die right here right now
With a smile on my face and I say

OHHHHH (crowd re-peats)

And If I die before I wake
I pray the lord my soul to take
And tell you that I loved you from the moment that I saw you
And everyday I worked for you
Just to lay down next to you
And the Greatest gift you gave me most of all
Everyday you loved me was like Heaven on this Earth ALL ALONG

 

Once Upon a Time

words and Music By Ryan Maloney

It seems Just like yesterday
We were just two kids, who ran away
With no money in the bank
With no plans and blind faith
Not much was what we had
As long as we had each others
Arms wrapped around each other
I couldn't care about another.
 
I could never erase
Or turn back the page
To the story of our life
And of loves sweet embrace
In the end of our life
It will still be you and I
And It all started with Once upon a time

In three days we landed
On the outskirts of las vegas
With stars and bright lights in our eyes
Fueled on love and making
A house, babies and memories
I lean on you, You lean on me
Arms wrapped around each other
I couldn't care about another.

I could never erase
Or turn back the page
To the story of our life
And of loves sweet embrace
In the end of our life
It will still be you and I
And It all started with Once upon a time

Now my greatest pride
Is what this house holds inside
Through the thunder and the rain
Through the work tears and pain
 Every laugh and every kiss
Is what I come home to miss
But most of all this portrait of our family
Means everything to me.

I would never erase
Or turn back the page
To the story of our life
And of loves sweet embrace
In the end of our life
It will still be you and I
And It all started with Once upon a time

 

Forget & Let Go

words and music Ryan Whyte Maloney 

 

Could you help me understand

What makes a man

Can you show me the meaning why life is mistreating

Back to the day to wipe your tears away

All along your mind was already made

 

Can you help me to understand

How to forget and let you go

 

Forget and let go

It is so easier said than done

No words I could have said

Could ever reprimand

And all that is left is this hole

Forget and let go...

 

All those silly times that my heart unwinds

Things you taught to me 

Seem to confuse me

You always were the one

To teach me to keep holding on

And I offered you my hand and you wouldn't hold it back

And now you lay in front of me silent six feet below

 

bridge

And I lie awake

And feel this pain 

And this has not healed with time

 

Can you help me to understand

How to forget and let you go

 

Forget and let go

It is so easier said than done

No words I could have said

Could ever reprimand

And all that is left is this hole

Forget and let go...

"Freight Train" 

words and music written by Ryan Whyte Maloney

 

I'm like a freight train

A runaway train

I Ain’t stopp’n for no one even when I'm dead

I got one life, one life to live

And i'm gonna do everything I can with it

 

Iv'e never been the type to follow rules on how to live but that’s just me

I don't sip on champagne

I work seven days a week and drink a lake mead cocktail

I learned everything I know the hard way

And what I know you can't learn in a book

I fall down and get up

Through every bruise and cut

And I get back on that horse again

 

I'm like a freight train

A runaway train

I Ain’t stopp’n for no one even when I'm dead

I got one life, one life to live

And i'm gonna do everything I can with it

 

Some people ask "when ya gonna grow up"?

Don't you know in this life there's no guarantees

Well I don't mind play’n smokey bars

Just gimme a mic and shine a light on me

There ain't anything wrong with havin’ a dream and if ya do then take it from me

Don't let anyone tell you "You Can't" cuz this is AMERICA

The land of the FREE.......

 

 

Well if you've Felt like no one cared and you've only got yourself

Well have you ever been told "Hey you can't do this boy" this is impossible

Well have you ever been told your not pretty enough, Skinny enough then come with me

Well if you don't care lets see them fingers in the air and sing along with me

 

I'm like a freight train

A runaway train

I Ain’t stopp’n for no one even when I'm dead

I got one life, one life to live

And i'm gonna do everything I can with it

To be a MAN

words and music by Ryan Whyte Maloney

I’ve got a beautiful Wife
A little two year old at Home
They look at me with loving Eyes
And to them I am a Hero
I work even though I’m Tired
I make the best of what I Got
Sometimes the weight upon my Shoulders
Tries to break me but I keep hanging On

There’s no directions to this life
You gotta do choose which path is right
But I’ll keep walking in this darkness
Until I stumble into light

What is the measure of a Man
Is it the strength within his Hands
Or is it Bleeding for his Family
To keep a roof over their Heads
Sometimes I hang my head and Cry
But my tears they’ll never See
That’s what it means to be a Man
Fighting the tears back for your Family

used to be a player I've been the sinner and a fool

But they say behind every good man is a woman just like you

I never claim to know all the answers and when I'm wrong I know I'm wrong

But your love & faith is like the wind that keeps me sailing on

There’s no directions to this life
You gotta do choose which path is right
But I’ll keep walking in this darkness
Until I stumble into light

What is the measure of a Man
Is it the strength within his Hands
Or is it Bleeding for his Family
To keep a roof over their Heads
Sometimes I hang my head and Cry
But my tears they’ll never See
That’s what it means to be a Man

 

Fighting the tears back for your Family

 

So when I hang my head night

And get on my knees to pray

I thank God for everything I have in front of me.

In your Grace

I was deaf until after all the smoke

From the wars that I was making started settling

And through a grey haze

A light of sound came into my ears

And I heard the sweetest song ever made

 

And out from the darkness

your light fell upon me

And cast all the pain away

And turned my world from night to day

 

And it was you.....

Like a blanket over me

 

And It Was you........

Who turned doubting eyes into a masterpiece

Every color

Every shade

I can hear

I can taste

And I can feel you wrap your loving arms around me

In your grace........

 

We all walk along the path

tripping in and out of the lines

We pretend that we can't see

And our heart holds the compass

But we are too afraid to believe

In what we cannot touch, feel, see or breathe.

And out from the darkness

your light fell upon me

And cast all the pain away

And turned my world from night to day

 

And it was you.....

Like a blanket over me

And It Was you........

Who turned doubting eyes into a masterpiece

Every color

Every shade

I can hear

I can taste

And I can feel you wrap your loving arms around me

In your grace........

 

And I could never express all of my happiness that you have given to me

And I could never forget when you looked at me and said

I hope that your my last first kiss that I ever have again